Thank you for visiting my blog! My name is Tehsina. I'm 21-year old student living in Toronto, Ontario. Most of my interests include those which surround a healthy lifestyle. I love eating nutritious foods and being active. I got inspired to start this blog after reading so many other amazing food blogs. Through this blog, I have a place to express my love for food, fitness and life.

I wasn't always a health enthusiast. I grew up on fast food, junk food and Indian food; all of which did not contain many nutrients. I was not particularly active and hated gym class. My family did not place much emphasis on fitness or nutrition, as my parents were not brought up in the health-crazed society of today.

Prior to the age of 16, I felt I had a decent body. Most of my friends believed I was thin and in shape. Some of my family members felt I was too skinny; however, Indians often believe everyone is too skinny and that everyone should always eat more.

Then one day as I was getting ready for school, I put on my fluorescent pink half-button down shirt and realized I couldn't suck it in. I was devastated, shocked, in disbelief! How could this be?! It was at that moment I knew I would have to go on a real diet.

The next morning I awoke aware of the small portions of food I was going to eat and the great amounts of rigorous exercise I was going to perform. I consumed approximately 500-800 calories per day and indulged in sweets on weekends. I exercised for approximately 50-60 minutes 5 days per week for a month and a half. I lost 42 pounds and was classified as anorexic at a weight of 93 pounds and a height of 5 foot 3 inches. My doctor told me I should "eat junk food" to gain the weight back. Big mistake! I was so enthralled with the idea, I loaded up Little Debbie brownies, swiss rolls and chocolate chip cookies and believed I was simply following the doctor's orders.

The day I realized I had gained weight was terrible. I was in the change room at Zara trying on everything that was extra small. Unfortunately, none of the items fit my body. You can bet I saw Little Debbie staring at me through that mirror! I left the store repulsed with myself and my reflection. I made the choice to eat healthier food and limit sweets and junk food to a minimum. Unfortunately, I experienced many episodes of binging during this period. All I wanted to do was eat everything that was delicious, everything that was restricted, everything that made me this fat girl I believed I was.

I battled binge eating disorder for many years. I eventually began to realize the reason I binged was because I didn't love myself. I realized I didn't know how to love myself. My teenage years were not the prettiest and I definitely didn't have it easy. I was faced with several life-altering encounters and dealing with them was extremely difficult. I often felt very insecure, lonely and unworthy. I felt as though I was never going to be good enough for anyone. When I realized I was good enough for myself, I knew binge eating could no longer be a part of my life.

Throughout this journey, I've met certain individuals who have truly touched my heart. Whether they are currently in my life right now or no longer in touch, I will always value the moments we once shared. I've been so fortunate to have friends around during moments of happiness and joy, as well as during moments of sadness and grief. I can't help but be so thankful to receive the amounts of love and comfort I have throughout the years. I can only look forward to many more memories with those who keep me smiling.

By staying positive, I learned to make healthier choices. Not only do I eat healthy and live actively, I also choose to appreciate more in life. I enjoy waking up every morning realizing that I'm alive and well. I am so fortunate to have the life I have. I believe that because I have been granted such an amazing gift, I should nurture it and live my life to its full potential.

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